N SINOTAPH III
2022 | Digital [Clip Studio Paint]
WARNING: Nudity [Top] | Figure in the piece is fully nude, including a bare, rendered chest with fatty tissue. Lower anatomy is mostly covered by fur, obsured to the point where exact shape and details cannot be clearly discerned. Content is not meant to imply a sexual context.
WARNING for description below: Not for those not an adult in their region. Mention of gender dysphoria, queerphobia, and hints to major events in the USA during the summer of 2022. Overall general downer/frustrated mood/tone.
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Alt title: Prayer Neutrois
Current events got me scared and snarling, and a lot of dysphoria I've been able to keep managed ended up resurfacing all at once. Its overwhelming.
Poor timing, I know, but one of my goals this year is to attempt to access some affirming healthcare, and now it feels like I'm on a ticking clock to make that happen before some dipshits in suits take more shit away. This has been something I've been seeking out since my late teens, but the fear of queerphobic backlash from doctors and the frustration of being laughed off every time I brought up this desire had me tired and pretty hopeless. With that said, I have friends who've been kind enough to point me in several directions that have proved successful to them. Yesterday I sent off emails to some places, and tomorrow I'll be making some calls.
This is the closest to praying I do nowadays. I'm hoping things go as I wish. I just want to breath easy instead of trying to shove away the ever present feeling that I'm living in some body horror tale. I want to not have to fight some entitled jerk over control of the flesh I have to live with.